Sheer frustration

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I'm fuming. What a display by Dirk Kuyt. Call him Mr Duracell or whatever, for me, I have hardly wanted him in the squad!. Sure he does run a lot, but he's a striker for heaven's sake. Once, Torres was injured and he was made the lone striker. Being Mr Duracell, he wasn't even a threat, making things better, he was at times seen helping the defenders. We applaud his workrate, but that's not why he is paid for.

His display tonight was a shame. He's a man with good personality of course. Does this matter on the field? It does, but it means little if you have little skills to light up the match.

I do not hate players per se. At the end of the day, your goal statistics matter. Aye?

I am no different in comparison to other Koppites. We share the same frustration.

So do the Irish fans. Classic Mr Cantona comments,

"What shocked me most wasn't the handball, honestly," said Cantona. "What shocked me most was that at the end of the match, in front of the television cameras, this player (Henry) went and sat down next to an Irish player to console him, even though he'd screwed them three minutes earlier.

"If I'd been Irish, he wouldn't have lasted three seconds."

It's a bitter pill to swallow now eh Henry, coming from your fellow countryman?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'm frustrated. I'm tired.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Rambut gugur

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I had to go to Dinas right after my evening shift at A&E. Really, when I had my brunch at 10.30am, I thought that would be sufficient to keep my stomach full for at least 5-6 hours. Barely 4 hours post brunch, my body started converting fat to ketone to keep me awake. Huh..

I wanted to go out and get something for dinner(2nd lunch actually), but the visitors never stopped coming in and I had to entertain each and everyone of them. They came to A&E for reasons as trivial as conjunctivitis! This is absolutely an abuse to the system. How can everyone expect the hospital to be quick in treating them when they come with this problem?

Emergency in the word A&E means nothing to many I suppose?

I try to put myself into the shoes of the people, and I understand their plight. Having said that, I still think this creates an unnecessary burden to the staff of emergency department.

I will not force you to believe, but once a patient turned at 3 am(morning) anc complained ' Doktor, rambut saya gugur'. That doc replied 'dah berapa lama?', and as hillarious as it sounds he replied 'dah 3 bulan dah'.

It is subjective, though for me this is absolute nonsense.

Even if there was no Klinik Kesihatan available @ midnight, you need not come at 3 am for this right? Pasal rambut gugur lak tu!

I'm tired. I need sleep.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

MAN CITY - LIVERPOOL this weekend. Any prediction? Aquilani to start?

Mission Accomplished

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

My day started off very well indeed! My alarm was set at 5.50, 5.55 and 6.00 am, but ironically it woke me up at 6.30. In less than 25 minutes, I managed to get myself ready for an Basic Emergency Course at Sultan Abdul Halim Hospital, Sungai Petani. Efficient right?

I thought the whole course was beneficial. Now I feel more like a doctor, that I need to be constantly prepared for whatever may come. Even things that I thought I knew very well, I could not be more wrong. For instance, one needs to be careful in interpreting fine VF(ventricular fibrillation) and asystole. To defibrillate or CPR eh?

What makes it more memorable was the presence of 1 very cute Chinese(Malaysian) girl. I almost melted at room temperature. I stood still however, being the cool me as always.

The course ended at 4.30 pm. Dorothy and I, we thought we should make use of our rare trip to Sg. Petani. So, we decided to give it a go. We roamed around the town and found some interesting places, to me at least.

Interesting, isn't it?

I never set out any mission for today. Nevertheless, I felt mission accomplished when I reached Kulim again.

Did I not mention the shirt that I bought? A white T-shirt bearing the picture of Steven Gerrard - Captain Fantastic.


I feel good. It was a fruitful trip. Cute Chinese Girl, Anfield Burger and Steven Gerrard shirt? How complete more could you want?=)

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Ecstatic/Euphoric

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I have been working in the government hospital for close to 9 months now. I suppose my 3 year stint in NZ has largely influenced the way I work and think.

I'm now in my 2nd week of my 3rd posting. I am now placed at Accident&Emergency. I still find it weird to be known as Dr Azri.

In NZ, Dr Azri is only reserved for me if I ever become a Consultant. In Malaysia, I suppose it's the pride of 'Oh, I'm a Doctor, therefore people must address me as Dr. X'. Even if you are only in Day 1! Whichever way you want to address me, I will not turn my back on you. On the whiteboards, many House Officers(junior doctors) will leave their name and phone no as Dr X - 019-2222222. For me, it's written by me this way - Azri - 019 2222 222. Easy, no?

It also makes me restless that I have to put on my white coat on daily basis. I think it's better not to mention why. During my medical student days, white coat was never compulsory. We go to hospital with our normal formal working attires.

By no means I want to say the practices here are bad. I love my job. If I was only given a chance to state my reason for coming back, it has to be none other than my love to this country. Here in Malaysia, terima kasih means much better than thank you. I am posted a district hospital, and I am thankful to Allah for whatever He has given to me.

Now that it is my 9th month in Hospital Kulim, I find that I have done more things(procedures) in comparison to my colleagues in NZ and Australia. I don't know much about UK, Scotland or Ireland. Here in Kulim also we don't have too many house officers (which is good of course)!

So, is Malaysia a bad place? No at all!

Afiq, Yan, Yop, Keri, Tapa, Pokeh, Ikram, Rafi, Mr Big Shot, Akak, Huzaimy - 2006

My 3 year stint in NZ has also made very happy when NZ All Whites have qualified for next year's World Cup 2010 in South Africa. Well done! Who knows, if they know how to do 'Haka' well, they might scare off Brazil and go all the way to win the World Cup. lol! talking about fantasy eh?

Malaysia - New Zealand All Whites 2006.

Congrats again to the All Whites!! It's a sheer joy to us who spent a minimum 3 years in NZ.



I need to stop writing now. I am on call tonight.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

p/s having said whatever I have said above, I know I am far from becoming a perfect person. =) and =(

You're Cool!

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

You're Cool!

yeah, I'm pretty bored at the moment. I'm 4 hours away from my routine night sleep, but I reckon I need to have some intellectual input to my already rusted brain. I know so little yet there's a huge responsibility rested on my shoulder. Therefore, I'LL STILL BE ONLINE tonight but lesser attention will be given I suppose.

Yeah, I need to start studying now. My Canadian ex-classmate told me, stop using 'yeah'. The Kiwis use 'yeah' a lot.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

X factor..

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I love my job!! Everyday I wake up I will forward to having a good day. This A&E(Accident & Energency) posting is fun and thrilling. You get to see from same lame old cases to the ones you would only see in once in a lifetime. Everyone is nice, they talk to everyone, and for me it wasn't that difficult to mingle with these MA's(medical assistants) as I play football with them.

Zlatan Ibrahimovic, previously in the blue and black of Internaziole.

It is either they are nice people or I am super friendly. I think it's the latter!! lol..

It is also this good feeling factor that makes me back on my feet. Previously my page averaged an average of 1000 visitors per month. I have lost that in the last few months and now slowly I am getting them back. Good good. I did not install 'feedjit' if you know what I mean. So feel free to roam at this page anytime anywhere.

I haven't solat yet. Till next time. It's 11.48pm local time.

assalamualaikum.

The Blessing

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

little by little, now I can slowly the blessing from that 'incident'. Alhamdulillah. It is getting more obvious every day.

I don't see it as a loss now. I really don't.

This is your life as you have chosen. You decide as you would like.

For whatever mistakes I have done to myself, I pray to Allah that He will forgive me.

To those who might take this issue differently, the word revenge is non existent in my life's dictionary, honestly. I pray for everyone's well being. I am the type that keeps no enemy. I feel guilty even if I scold somebody for the right reason, and hopefully that tells a lot.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

p/s: off to work soon (making extra money)

Business mode

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

today we received our schedule for November. Pretty flexible the way I see it. I get to organise now how to make extra money, and a lot of things too.

I have only just come back from lepak-ing session with my MO and MA. They were sort of persuading me to join into their business venture. Looking @ the money prospects, I suppose I have more reasons to say yes than no. The question is, will I have the time to commit myself to another commitment, when I can't accomplish my current mission properly.

As everyone would like to put it, money is not everything. I bet more than 99.784% would agree money is important and can give you loads of things.

Kuih business, perhaps?

Having said this, few who know me relatively well, money is never on top of priority list. This could be utterly rubbish, but, money and power do not appeal to me as much as other things.

For example, insyaAllah, I would trade my holiday for an umrah. And I wouldn't mind spending perhaps thousands just for an experience @ the Kop, Merseyside. Or as boring as it sounds, I want to be @ the summit of Bekelah, the 7 layered waterfall. Counting the real stars here is so much better than the journey Jeff Goldblum and Will Smith endured in ID4(Independence Day).

Should I join the business? Many have interpreted this wrongly, but this is one of the instances where solat istikharah is encouraged.

Whichever decision I may take, I seek for Allah's guide. He's the Best.

till next time,
assalamualaikum